On Music, Life and All Other Foolishness

So yeah, here's another blog post. Fuck me I keep forgetting about this place, but then again I've been kinda busy with life and all that jazz so sorry person who reads this.

So yeah...you should totally start listening to stuff from Plan-It-X Records, because it's so beautiful that it makes me tear up, smile from ear to ear, get angry, and all that jazz. Oh yeah by the way I've gotten into folk punk really heavy. I want to actually make the music, go on tours, and hopefully get signed on Plan It X someday. I mean, because they're such an amazing label with a great business ethic.

For legit, check out some of their music:

http://chrisclavin.bandcamp.com/album/here-not-there

Here's one of the most amazing albums made in 2012:

http://chrisclavin.bandcamp.com/album/all-we-got-it-each-other

And here's the newest from Ghost Mice and Ramshackle Glory, two of the best folk punk bands ever.

http://chrisclavin.bandcamp.com/album/shelter

So yeah, this stuff has been pretty much my life for a while. You should totally listen to this stuff, because I think this music and action can help change the world, if not that then the neighborhood you live in.

Just a Couple of Poems

I wrote these on my phone.

If I lay my hands upon you,

Will you love me still?

Will you wrap your arms around me 

and protect me from the chill?

And if I say I need you

will you say that you do too?

Please my love,

don't be cruel.

And then there was this one.

Summer sweeps in on wings white and warm,

banishing winter with its 

searing sublime sunlight,

and with the cold goes too

my foolish youth.

Summer shall be the time of my rising.

Summer shall be my redemption.

I figured I'd upload these somewhere where I can do stuff like that, also so I can have a blog that's updated again. 

And hey, someone gets to read it, somewhere.

Is it Odd...

Is it strange that I can chart the course of my life through Rise Against lyrics? Because I can. I mean, maybe it's because they were one of the first bands I really loved, but I can trace my evolution as a person based on what songs I connect to. I used to connect to some of their more hardcore and angsty tracks back when I thought I was hardcore and angsty. Then later I got into some of their, as I have come to call them, "broken heart ballads" like "Anywhere But Here". Now I'm in the painful process that they call growing up and my song preference has changed. Before the lyrics of "Rumors of  My Demise Have Been Greatly Exaggerated" were a Rosetta stone on how I function as a person, but now I'm growing out of the lyrics of "Pages torn from books we never read/Cause we're plugged into this grid./Don't pull this plug right now,/Or then we'd really have to live." Its honestly a bit frightening really.

I'm no longer concerned with the matters of "When I die, will they remember not/What I did, but what I haven't done?/It's not the end that I fear with each breath/It's life that scares me to death." In fact life is less frightening to me now that I've learned how to deal with the monsters of memory and the dragons of new days. And honestly I'm not sure how I feel about that. I find it strange, but I miss feeling that sadness. I miss the feeling of being special because I'm sad. Because being depressed does have a glamor to it, I mean, hell we have genres devoted to it.

But to cut a ramble short, it's nice and scary at the same time to grow up and Rise Against is kinda like my barometer for telling how I'm doing I guess.

On The Purchase of Renoise

I have no idea why buying a sound editing program would excite me so much, but fuck if it doesn't. I mean...now I can finally get all these beats out of my head and into the world. It's a rather odd feeling, because there's also a bit of...melancholy too. I mean now I feel like I am coming into adult-hood, with the purchase of this tool with which I shall make my bread. It's odd.

Home Again, Home Again

So, for anyone who has been wondering, I haven't been able to get at a computer for a very long time to update this little corner of the web I call my home. But fret not, because I've got stuff incoming.

Stay tuned.

The Night and the Soul

Why is that the night makes us different creatures? I mean, I've had more deep conversations with people at night than in the day. At night we seem to loosen our collars as a soceity. Think about it, how would anything we did in the night fly at day. What about the night turns us into more primal creatures? I don't know why, but I like people at night better than during the day.

I mean...being with friends at night seems more real than hanging with friends durring the day. You get to bond more, you say stuff you wouldn't normally say. Even if you don't drink, you still seem more primal and raw and real at night. Is it the moon? Is it the air?

I honestly don't know, do you?

Some Thoughts

You know...I'm really fucking glad that I didn't have the Internet back when I was 15, even though I could have. I mean, you look at people like Chris-chan and others of his ilk along with others, and I realize that when I was a youngun I would have done the same fucking thing. And that scares me a wee bit, and it makes me glad that I never did that. I have retarded videos of me doing retarded things, but thankfully I never uploaded that shit to Youtube. I realize I could have become interwebz infamous for being a total fucking idiot, and that has a certain...something to it, but shit I am glad I never did it. There is a certain something to being famous on the Internet and having my own group of trolls, fans(which I never would have gotten), and gawkers to watch as I kept being an idiot. But also I could have never grown as a human if I hadn't recorded those stupid shit, mainly because I watch that shit and I realize how much I've grown.

And that's about it.